I still don't know where God is leading me ultimately, but I am confident that constantly adjusting my focus and seeking His leading will take me in the right direction. As cheesy as it sounds, I know that God is "lighting" my path, but sometimes it feels like He is using a flashlight. It reminds me of the night when my friends and I were backpacking and I was looking for a place to set-up a tent in the dark with the temperature in the 20s using a flashlight. I found a spot, but soon after climbing in my sleeping I also found a giant bolder directly underneath my half of the tent that I failed to find with the flashlight. I was uncomfortable, but I made it through it and in the morning I woke up, broke down the tent and laughed about the fact that I would have slept much better if I would have been able to see as well the night before. Every now and then I have moments like that morning when it all makes sense, when I can se what made me so uncomfortable, but I can also see how God carried me through it. There is no question in my mind that I having a calling, but sometimes the hardest thing to do in life is to wait for God's timing. He is in control and I am commiting every step I take to His mission, regardless of where that takes me, even if it is just to Kansas City. Beyond the edge of the light is a mysterious world that I can't wait to explore. Thankfully along the way the morning comes and we look around at the friends and family we have and the things we made it through and thank God for His sustaining love and grace.
